This is it. I hate to do this seriously. I don't like to talk about it I don't like to express myself cause I'm suck at it... I need to talk. Why are you alone? Why do you feel so lonely in the middle of the night? Why don't you have someone to cuddle around you when you need one the most? Why must you put up a tough look to show you're okay when you're not? Why does you jump into conclusion even before you asked for you understand? Why does it seems like you know you got a family but you just feel that lonely, you're all alone. No matter what, you're facing it yourself, especially when you needed anyone to be there just anyone, be it your pet or whatever whoever, you realized there's only you, and just you yourself. How much of feelings thoughts you had inside, how much you try to tell somebody wishing that one would listen don't judge and yes, just a hug or a shush and let you cry it all out will do, but who be there to do the job right? No one. I was dreaming sitting up high last night, wanted to gather my courage to say good bye and leave... Who would understand what am I going through, who could keep their words to be there for me when I needed you?
I woke up, with texts but none of what I wished. Was reprimanded because I couldn't make it to work last minute, no, I wished to go but I doubt I would and I could as I looked into the mirror, I had bruises on my face and I couldn't even talk properly because it hurts so much when I tries to open my mouth... But who could understand the pain I had this morning?
Yes, Catherine. You're all alone.
